There are some changes around here... mainly on our schedules and my new role of a full time mum. Yes, I've left the corporate world to be a full time mum now :-).
Due to difference in logistics, transportation arrangement and some other changes, we have to make adjustments to our schedules as well. The kids are getting used to the new arrangement and are just so great and understanding.
I have been a working mum for 7 years, and everyday in those 7 years have not brought me as much joy and peace as I am experiencing now.
I must say my work had brought me great satisfaction, exposure, and independence. But in the context of a mum who is working, I have never felt so guilty - I felt guilt when I left my kids with my mum as I go to work, guilty when I took work leave to be with my kids knowing fully the amount of work accumulating on my work desk, guilty when I stay to entertain clients on evenings when I should be home with my kids, guilty when I have to say no to classes which my kids have requested (no one to ferry them around).
Since being a full time mum, I wake up earlier, cook more, rush a lot more, and my me time has virtually zeroed down to only after the kids' bedtime, which by that time I'm already too knackered to do anything than sleep. But I spend a lot more quality time with my kids. Hubs and I eat healthier cos we eat a lot more home-cooked food. I have more bonding opportunities with my kids. We talk a lot more. We share a lot more. We sing a lot more. And the kids fought a lot less.
Fulfilling the wish of my 7 year old to be a "home mama" (as how he termed it) is one thing that I wish to do since a very long time ago. My kids are happy. And I am at peace. At peace because I do not have to depend on another person to attend to my kids. At peace because the energy, effort and time, which I spent to building someone else's business, is now invested on my own beloved children. At peace because I am now doing what I am supposed to do as a mama :-).
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